However, relying upon God, we conducted ourselves with the utmost patience and submission, resignation and calmness; so much that if one did not know anything about these matters, he would have thought that we were in perfect ease of soul, enjoying the tranquility of heart mind, and were engaged in happiness and felicity. (‘Abdu’l-Bahá, Tablets of ‘Abdu’l-Bahá v1, p. 45)
It’s hard for me to rely on God when I’m impatient for something to happen or a quick decision to be made and I’m learning that it’s at these times I need to hold tight to His cord even more. Test number one!
It’s even harder to do it with patience, let alone “utmost patience”. Test number two!
It’s harder still to submit to God’s will, especially if I have to be “utmost patient” for years, as I’ve had to do with several important issues that apparently, it’s not within my power to rush. And even harder when God’s given me a disappointing NO! Test number three!
It’s also hard to be resigned (or worse yet, radiantly acquiescent) in the face of so many tests. Test number four!
And calm? Really, God? On top of everything else, you want me to be calm, when so many emotions are churning around inside me? Test number five!
And finally, to not let anyone know I’m struggling, to wear that “Feast face”, so that everyone around me would think that I’m “in perfect ease of soul, enjoying the tranquility of heart mind, and were engaged in happiness and felicity”. Test number six!
So many tests embedded in that one quote.
Knowing that reliance on God comes with other things I have to consider, and that all He wants is for me to strive, I am grateful!
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