He urges you to persevere and add up your accomplishments, rather than to dwell on the dark side of things. Everyone’s life has both a dark and a bright side. The Master said: “turn your back to the darkness and your face to Me”. (From a letter written on behalf of the Universal House of Justice to a National Spiritual Assembly, 2 December, 1980)
I find it so easy when I’m calling myself to account, to focus only on everything I did wrong. I can ruminate for years on a past transgression, which I might believe God has forgiven, but I can’t forgive myself. I think I’ve become attached to negativity, and to beating myself up. People have told me for a long time that I have a tendency to be hard on myself. Lately I’ve come to see this as an addiction.
Recently someone asked me if there is a concept of forgiving oneself in the Bahá’í Writings. At first I fell into the thinking of the day, because I’ve been working on forgiving myself. Now I’ve come to realize that the only one with the power to forgive me is God. If I ask for forgiveness, it’s granted because His forgiveness exceeds His fury and He is the “ever-forgiving” and the “all merciful”. If I can’t accept His forgiveness or don’t trust that it’s been given when I asked, then these are veils between me and God, which need to be removed through detachment.
Knowing I have permission to add up my accomplishments and focus on them, and knowing I can turn my back on the darkness as I turn towards God, I am grateful!
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