Thy name is my healing, O my God, and remembrance of Thee is my remedy. Nearness to Thee is my hope, and love for Thee is my companion. Thy mercy to me is my healing and my succor in both this world and the world to come. Thou, verily, art the All-Bountiful, the All-Knowing, the All-Wise. (Bahá’u’lláh, Prayers and Meditations by Bahá’u’lláh, p. 261)
During this pandemic, my energy level has gone way down. Instead of welcoming all the Zoom meetings I’m being invited to, I dread another invitation. As an extreme introvert, I can’t cope with the volume of emails, phone calls, text messages and invitations being sent to me. I want to respond to them all, and I can’t. Not only that, but my bandwidth for participating in my usual meetings has gone way down. Now instead of 5-6 events in a day, I can only handle 1 or 2. I’m having to make difficult choices about which ones I will attend, which ones I will limit my time on, and which ones I will have to say no. This week I found myself having to say no to a devotional gathering over the phone, which has been going on every week with a dear friend, for almost 20 years. I didn’t want to cancel but I knew I couldn’t handle it. I was trying to talk myself out of it, saying: “nothing is better than saying prayers and immersing yourself in the Words of the Writings. It will be good for you.” Everything inside of me said NO! I couldn’t do it.
I decided to say the short healing prayer by myself instead. It’s a prayer I’ve memorized and said many times over the 35 years I’ve been a Bahá’í, and yet several phrases really stood out for me:
- Thy name is my healing . . . remembrance of Thee is my remedy: Sure, immersing myself in the Writings is healing. Participation in the core activities is healing. But so is remembering Him and repeating His Holy Name. I don’t have to do more than that.
- Thy mercy to me is my healing and my succor: I don’t have to do anything to please God. If I don’t attend the devotional gathering (or Feast or a Holy Day), I’m not going to lose out on His love. There’s nothing I have to do to earn His love. His mercy to me is my healing; not what I think I have to do to deserve it.
Knowing I can relax into God’s mercy and stop judging myself, I am grateful!
What jumped out for you as you read today’s meditation? I’d love it if you would share so we can all expand our knowledge of the Writings!
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