A unity in diversity of actions is called for, a condition in which different individuals will concentrate on different activities, appreciating the salutary effect of the aggregate on the growth and development of the Faith, because each person cannot do everything and all persons cannot do the same thing. (The Universal House of Justice, A Wider Horizon, Selected Letters 1983-1992, p. 80)
Recently I’ve come to accept myself as I am, not as I thought I wanted to be. For example, for most of my Bahá’í life, I’ve immersed myself in the Writings and in the letters of the House of Justice and tried valiantly to align myself with what I understood the guidance to mean. I drove myself to the point of exhaustion and burn out, trying to put every injunction into effect, truly believing that if I didn’t do everything being asked of all of us, I would personally be responsible to God for delaying the advent of the Most Great Peace. Truly. I believed this!
Then someone reminded me that humanity (including me) has been invited to the banquet table of the Lord. All the Writings put together can be seen as a giant potluck meal and all I have to do is take what I can eat. If I put more than that on my plate, it will be wasted and do me no good. As an extreme introvert, I’m more comfortable writing than speaking; I prefer the solitude of a small circle of people, preferably one-on-one because social engagements leave me feeling exhausted and drained. Much though I want to participate in the core activities, I feel best when doing activities that can be performed alone, and that’s OK. There’s room in this Faith for all of us, doing the best we can, serving in ways that are aligned with the will of God and not done to please others.
Knowing that God loves me and appreciates every effort I make in service, I can stop judging myself so harshly, and I am grateful!
What jumped out for you as you read today’s meditation? I’d love it if you would share so we can all expand our knowledge of the Writings!
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