One must, then, read the book of his own self, rather than some treatise on rhetoric. Wherefore He hath said, “Read thy Book: There needeth none but thyself to make out an account against thee this day. (Bahá’u’lláh, Seven Valleys and Four Valleys, p. 51)
Over the years I’ve spent building up my website and my blog and trying to publish my books, I’ve had many steep learning curves and I’ve always turned to guru’s to help me, rather than take my problems to God. This has caused an inordinate amount of stress and frustration as I’ve literally willed my way through the obstacles and blocks until I just couldn’t do it anymore. I’d ruined my health and my will.
As I recover from workaholism and an addiction to the adrenaline rush of doing things my way, myself, I’m learning to “read the book of myself”, by listening to my body’s wisdom. I ask: what is this ache and pain trying to tell me? What is God’s will for me in the moment? What’s the next right action I need to take? Am I living in the present (the home of serenity) or in the future (the home of anxiety)?
I’m also learning that what other people think of me is none of my business. I don’t have to be perfect for anyone, including God. I don’t need anyone’s approval, except God’s. I can let go of all caretaking, approval seeking and people-pleasing and focus on building a relationship with God and with myself.
God’s opinion and guidance are all I need for today, and I am grateful!
What jumped out for you as you read today’s meditation? I’d love it if you would share so we can all expand our knowledge of the Writings!
If you liked this meditation, you might also like my book Getting to Know Your Lower Nature