O My servants! Could ye apprehend with what wonders of My munificence and bounty I have willed to entrust your souls, ye would, of a truth, rid yourselves of attachment to all created things, and would gain a true knowledge of your own selves . . . (Bahá’u’lláh, Gleanings from the Writings of Bahá’u’lláh, pp. 326-327)
Although I’ve been aware of this quote for most of my Bahá’í life, I’ve always just focused on the last part but re-reading it this morning, I realize that this quote has 3 components:
- apprehend the wonders of God’s munificence and bounty He has willed to entrust my soul
- rid myself of attachment to all created things
- gain a true knowledge of my own self
I looked up the meaning of “apprehend” and “munificence” and the definitions that made sense to me is to “take in”, God’s “generosity and kindness”. As someone whose default position is disappointment and self-pity, I’ve come to realize that when I’m stuck in this wrong way of thinking, there is no way I can take in any goodness at all. The tool that has helped me reverse this trend is through gratitude. Now, every morning before I get out of bed, I think of at least 5 things I can be grateful for, and at night, before falling asleep, I think of 5 more. I’m on a morning meeting where I also give thanks for all of God’s blessings and bounties, to help keep me in the solution of my life and not in the problem.
Secondly, I am coming to realize how much of my life is driven by fears of losing what I have and resentment at not getting what I want. The focus is all on “me”. When I let go, and give my day to God, and remember that He is my employer, and the only one whose approval I need to seek, my life goes better and I’m better able to take in all the gifts He’s got in store for me.
Finally, for many years, I have resisted getting to know my own self. I kept myself so busy with work and Bahá’í service that there was no time. Coming into recovery, I have learned that since God is closer than my life vein, taking time to know myself is also giving me the gift of my life’s purpose: to know and worship God.
Letting go, and trusting God brings me closer to my true self and makes it easier to accept God’s love and I am grateful.
What jumped out for you as you read today’s meditation? I’d love it if you would share so we can all expand our knowledge of the Writings!
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