While there are opportunities for greater growth than is occurring, neither your Assembly nor the friends must burden themselves with feelings of failure at every disappointment, for such feelings are self-fulfilling and can easily cause stagnation in the expansion of the Cause. The tendency toward frustration, sometimes induced by a desire for instant gratification, must be resisted by an effort to gain a deeper appreciation of the divine process. (From a letter of the Universal House of Justice to the National Spiritual Assembly of the United States, May 1994)
I want what I want and I want it now and when it doesn’t happen, I’m disappointed, frustrated, resentful and full of self-pity. I wonder what went wrong. I ask myself: What could I have done differently? Why “they” weren’t responding to my texts, emails or phone calls? Why didn’t “they” do what they promised to do? These reactions and beliefs leave me feeling bitter and estranged from people and I don’t want to try harder or even try again. I give up. I’m trapped in the prison of self! Nothing changes. It’s not a very fun place to live, but it’s a well-worn rut and I go there often.
I forget that everything in life is uniquely positioned for my spiritual growth and development. Every test is an opportunity to draw me closer to God or further into self-will. I forget that God’s got a plan. He’s in charge of the decline of the old world order. Everything that’s meant to happen will do so in God’s perfect timing. I don’t need to figure anything out. I don’t need to push any mountains or swim upstream. I can relax into the comfort and protection of God’s nestling wings and let him steer the course for me for awhile. He’s my employer. All I have to do is take my marching orders from Him, many times a day. What’s next God? How can I be of service in this situation, God?
Remembering that there’s no need to rush or force the process, I am grateful!
What jumped out for you as you read today’s meditation? I’d love it if you would share so we can all expand our knowledge of the Writings!
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