Shall we not flee from the face of denial, and seek the sheltering shadow of certitude? Shall we not free ourselves from the horror of satanic gloom, and hasten towards the rising light of the heavenly Beauty? (Bahá’u’lláh, Kitáb-i-Íqán, p. 38)
As someone who was abused severely in childhood, I learned early how to dissociate away from the terror and anger I felt and have gone through adult life using work and busyness to numb the pain. I have been in deep denial for much of my life about what happened and more importantly, the impacts it’s had on my life. At times I look at this quote and realize the bounties of certitude and then it becomes too much to bear, and I get busy with work and service again.
This is an important quote though and I think it’s part of justice. When I can see through my own eyes and stand squarely in my truth, I can be more fully present with others. The horror of the satanic gloom will look different to everyone but the emotions it leaves behind (fear, self-pity, anger, bitterness) are common. They are the points of unity in our stories. When we flee from denial, we can stand together with others and change the world.
Knowing that the rising light of the heavenly beauty is always better than denial, I am grateful!
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